it's been too long for me to still feel this way

i'm not reaaally in the mood for blogging
i'm not reeaaaallllyyy in the mood for anything
i just want to go read more harry potter and sleep.
and get healthy. at the same time.

and i want to just photograph the world truthfully so everyone gets an actual goddamn sense of perspective for once

not that i can talk

not that i can ever talk

but whatever.
suck me.

good one, derek

knock knock knocking on heaven's door

you know i believe and how

i'll do my challegne blog later btw. i'm not forgetting about it

and wow i wrote those blogs last night minutes before i went to sleep and i can't actually remember putting thought into them.
i love them because they don't make sense


I MISS YOU
i miss you all
i want to see you
i want to be home
but also not really at all

cool. have to get back to scary movie. byes.

why?

why do i miss you? why do i care?
why are you always smiling? why are you always there?
why do you cope so much better? why can't i win?
why have i forgotten how to act normally? why is this like the beginning?
why can't i forget?
why can't i move away from you?
why are you so cute
all
the
time?

i fought the law...the law won

the way it think about it,


life and stuff is like a massive amount of recipes. they say everything happens for a reason and to every action their is an equal and opposite reaction. i like to think of every little thing you do as leading you on a certain path to somewhere. so if i was to wake up early and then read, would i have a different day to if i woke up late?



every day you follow, break and create new recipes. and you recieve the outcomes whether you like it or not.

yeah i thought it was interesting

i can't bring myself

to write the truth

what would you do if i sang out of tune

THIS IS A GOOD MORNING

but you don't really care for music

today was awful
awful awful awful