ohana

i woke up to the sound of half my life leaving
and i couldn't get back to sleep
it was then i realised everything was to be the same
and sleep is more important.
not more important than you,
just more important than you leaving me

i have to try harder in maths class
because you can no longer help me at home
and i have to try my best in vis com
because i know it will make you proud
and i need to but don't want to try harder at home
because someone has to help fill the shell that you're leaving behind

they said it was harder on you than me
and i can't correct them because i'm not sure
but at the moment it feels as if it's impossible
so i'm sorry about that one.

please stop pushing me
there's always so much to do everywhere
and i've reached a point where doing so much is bringing me down
and i'm able to do even less
that's not what you want.

just give ma a break and give me some freedom
because i swear i'm just going to vomit on your faces.
and that's the nicest way i can put it right now