Today turned to shit then didn't it.
Here I am watching skins and doing fuck all when suddenly I'm like wow. All that happened made me so angry and so sad for so long and now I've had time to think about it and bloody fucking hell. I hate myself..... But I still love you
That's so fucking great isn't it, so flipping fantastic
What are you left with? A scot free conscience, more self confidence, a seemingly loyal and naive female friend and happiness. What do I have? A hatred for my body, a lack of trust, little self respect, a synical view of relationships, mascara stains on all my pillow cases and a whole bucket of confusion.
I thought I was over this
But the stories I heard yesterday.. I just wanted to hear them the same way as everyone else. I just want to go back to when i thought the world of you. When I thought id finally done something right.
Fuck
Someone help